But ..... the GOOD news is that i went back to work today, which was fantastic.
Everyone was really sweet and i'm just about ok to read so i feel fine about that. It's just depressing to me that i have lost so much vision in three months (three lines), but to be honest i guess it was going to come one day. Though i kinda thought maybe it would be more gradual so that i could get used to it!
Things though are ok. I'm not allowed to suture, take bloods or cannulate in work, but i think i can live with that, as now i have my life back!!
It's strange how weird things get when normal life is suddenly taken away, and it's also very strange that i rely SO much on work and am completely lost without it!
Also just wanted to say i had a brilliant time in Scotland! The Killers, Keane and Green Day were fantastic! The only bad thing was that i came back a year older! LOL!! I'm now in my last year in my twenties, oh well ..... we all get there eventually! (sigh!)
On contacts ..... i've kinda gone backwards here and am using my right RGP more, (even though i now have sclerals). I know this isn't really the answer, and things could all go backwards again. But i get better vision with it, and i need that at least to drive and see to work if nothing else. I do have a left RGP now though which is quite odd after so long without one (11 yrs). But i'm coping quite well and have got to six hours which i think is quite impressive for an eye everyone gave up on. What do i get out of it, lol, one more line with both of them! (just making 6/12)
On the sclerals front ..... hmmm ..... the idea sounds very good to me, but i can't get used to these at all. It's really messy (or at least when i do it!), and my vision isn't good. Comfort wise though i find them better so maybe i should just keep on playing. But i seem to find it takes me forever to put them in, and then when i can't see well i wonder was it worth it?
Anyway ..... have just been to see a private dr, who thinks i should get a graft (maybe i shouldn't have backed out before). I have a lot of scarring with the left eye which is why i haven't worn a lens for so long and my vision is really poor even with a lens, but if i do it soon i could get away with a partial graft.
I didn't believe i would actually say it, but am seriously considering it, so will be looking online now for some info. But any from you guys would be great! A big worry i have when it's all done, is when i can go back to work! LOL, well i have only just got myself back into it. I know most go back in a couple of weeks, but i'm not really sure where nursing would come in because of infection risks etc, any ideas?
Ok ..... well i think i have talked enough! Will be catching up here soon! Thanks for all your pm's and emails, i will reply as soon as i can.
Just a few things,
Drew, how is the guide dog going?? Was thinking of you and wishing you well
Jacqueline, are your eyes any better now?
Jayuk, thanks for your support, will hopefully talk to you soon
Pauline H, how is it going - did you go for surgery after?
Shoayb and John thanks for your thoughts, yes we did make it back ok from Scotland even with my sisters navigating! LOL!
Susan, sorry i haven't got back in touch yet, might take you up on your offer to call you again soon, as these sclerals may be beating me! LOL!
Gareth B, thanks for your sincere thoughts, will email you back as soon as i can!
Pete B, hoping you're still doing well after surgery? Did your check up go ok? (Hope so)
And to everyone else i missed here sorry! Catch you all soon!
Love Sweet X x X
