Hi Tom
I hate -- truly hate -- any interaction with the medical profession and avoid the whole spectrum of doctors, specialists etc. at all costs. Colds, flu, anything whatsoever that can be ignored I just deal with rather than sit in some dreary waiting room dreading the impending "opportunity" to be fussed over ! That is, of course, apart from Keratoconus where I unfortunately can't avoid it
While I think that my refusal to go pestering the clinicians for those things that can be dealt with on my own is good (I'm quite proud of it in fact, and at the slightest encouragement will happily brag to anyone unfortunate to be in earshot about my refusnik record) it is a bit of a double edged sword. I went to a high street optician for many years who managed my Keratoconus quite well. But with the benefit of hindsight, I think back now and do consider I should have gone to a specialist practitioner for a review of my options sooner than I did. Actually, it wasn't until the optometrist threw in the towel with trying to get hard (RGP) lenses to work that I ended up having to get my GP to refer me to the NHS Primary Care Trust who had access to optometrists who worked with people with Keratoconus more often than the high street optician would be expected to do.
Even then, the array of options available under some NHS Trusts is limited, but my reluctance to do anything other than stick with what I knew meant that I didn't get to try out other methods for correcting my vision. Bottom line was, I ended up with poorer vision, more day-to-day discomfort and greater ignorance about how my condition could be managed than I should have done. While slipping in to hopeful (I might even say lazy) passivity about my Keratoconus was easy and excusable, I wish now I'd taken a more pro-active approach to finding out the latest thinking from a wider range of professionals and asking myself what I really wanted to achieve with my vision and then trying to bring that desired end-game about.
As you've said, you just can't get on with contacts. I'd suspect that the ones you'd tried were the standard RGPs. But there's more specialist RGPs which aim to achieve better tolerances for Keratoconus patients. Then there's soft lenses, hybrids, sclearals. Loads of different approaches. And if you want something more interventionist, there's intacs, crosslinking and grafts. But realistically, you can't get a handle on what is a complex set of variables unless you see specialist professionals who really understand each of these options and can give you the low-down on their various pro's and con's.
First things first: have you spoken to your GP about a referral to a vision clinic at your local regional hospital ? Or would you prefer to go down the private practice route ? That's the first question to decide, so let us know what your preference is (or if you want more info on making that initial choice, do shout up)
Just my opinion, but your Keratoconus is highly unlikely to simply get better on its own so the sooner you get seen by a professional or professionals who's opinions you are happy trust the less stressed you'll be about the whole thing and the easier life will become. Once you've found an agency who can actually manage your condition, whoever that turns out to be, you'll wonder how you ever managed to cope without the support they provide.
Okay, lecture over. Sorry if this all sounds hectoring, trying to give you the benefit of my past mistakes...
Best wishes (and Happy New Year !)
Chris