But ... i didn't come here to post and complain! I wanted to write and say thanks for all the support and messages you have all sent me. Without everyone being so nice, even when i came here shouting as i was angry at the whole world and everyone in it, i still had people emailing me to say it would get better. So thanks for that, it really meant a lot.
I also need to say thanks to all the optometrists and drs i've seen along the way. There wasn't one week i don't think when someone didn't attack me with that dam yellow stain lmao! Oh the things as patients we remember, will have to be very careful of that when i get back to work!
So ... i guess i need to put here, did i learn anything in all this time?
Well actually i did .....
I've learnt that most people are generally very helpful and will go out of their way if you can't see to find anything or cross the road. I've had very sweet elderly ladies helping me cross safely, which was very strange! Just wondering here where were they when the silver car ran me over?!! LMAO!!!
I've also found out why most shampoo and conditioner bottles open at different ends. Very dam useful, who thought of that one, as you can't read what they say. I've had friends over bringing food and then eating it with me in the dark so that they can empathise! Was very messy so i heard, but i couldn't see to clean up!! LMAO! Cute!
I've also been looking for the discs under pedestrian crossing machines, can't remember who said about that now, but you know you don't know they exist until you need them!
I was also truly thankful that some bright spark painted a green line from the tube station to Moorfields, that's so dam handy when you need it isn't it? Pity one didn't go from my house to the supermarket! LOL!!
But ... on the downside, i've also learnt that shops move things just when you start to learn where things are which is far from helpful when you struggled to find things in the first place. That coins really do look alike ... i never did quite get the hang of that one, and had to use paper notes all the time.
That there are only so many times you can burn yourself making tea before you decide you want a cold drink instead! That fashion and clothes sense goes out the window really when you can't see what you are dressing yourself with.
And that you really lose it when you have NOTHING at all to do. And honestly if one more person had told me to enjoy myself and the time i was having off work i would have really lost it. What exactly are you supposed to be doing when you can't see? When you can't even trust yourself to cook and cross the road in one piece, i fail completely in seeing what wonderful things i was supposed to have filled my time with! Words fail me!
But ... it's all fine.
Now i just about make 6/24 and one line down at a push with sclerals, and just about 6/12 with RGPs even though they kill me. This isn't bad now really, as i didn't make the first line or counting fingers in the beginning, but as it was 6/9 before all of this (with only one eye) it's kinda worrying to me. Although it has proved after eleven years, that the eye everyone gave up on does really see quite well with the right lens as it's actually doing better than my good eye. Just hoping to sort it out soon, but if nothing can be done, i guess life just needs to move on.
So have decided to get my life back on track and do what i've been planning all year and go to Scotland! I just make the driving limit so am going to the 'T festival' next weekend with my twin sister and two friends. Have been to Scotland, but never driven there, so this is all VERY exciting!
Have been so worried about all of this (moreso because none of them drive, so we have had months wondering if we would even get there). And also because this is my last bday in my twenties.
I need to go and celebrate that, and hopefully forget that the last three months ever happened! Although i won't forget friends here and you can't get rid of me that easily LOL! It's just made me realise i think how much i took all this eyesight thing for granted. But it will all be fine in the end, i still have faith! 
So ... after all of this, i just wanted to say see you next week when i am older and obviously wiser LMAO! And my bday wish is NOT to see anyone about my eyesight in Scotland, i've seen enough people in England and Wales as it is!!!
Take care, and will check in when i get back! (So long as my twin sister does a good job navigating and we DO get back! Hehehe!!!!!!)
Love Sweet X x X
